i probably have gained 9284014 lbs in 4 days since being in taiwan. the FOOOD. photos soon <3
got to see my bff, friends, and family <3 tis the life. i love studying abroad :D
2 nights ago, i met up with two old friends. it was… how do i explain this… it felt like old times again, but then we’ve all become so different… i guess that’s what 9 years apart feels like…
we had stingray 2 nights ago at newton circus! and a heineken, a calsberg, and a becks.
i don’t really want to go into detail as to what happened that night… it’s hard to explain my feelings.
i watched beautiful lies [a french film] with audrey tautou] with my friend last night. its a typical french film, aka, the story plot is FUCKING CRAZY!! i picked up bits and pieces of french last night, and thought of my bff. it was a pretty good movie. the only downside was that me and the friend sat in the 2nd row close to the front… and had to crank our necks up. the only other movie i had to do that for was Hitch back in middle school.
i had turtle!!!! soup today @ ser seng turtle restaurant in geylang, which is apparently the prostitute district of singapore.
so as some of you may or may not know, prostitution in singapore is LEGAL, but then there are the illegal prostitutes.
the family and i drove by the red-light district today. and me and a friend started judging the day-prostitutes. haha, we’re bitches.
when you’ve loved someone, you’ll always reserve a part of your heart to the person you loved. even if you don’t think you love them now, you still do. it’s a strange feeling…
ohemgee. for seriousness. haha. i haven’t posted in a reallyyyyy long time. and i totally forgot why my last post was so depressing…
well. i’m in taiwan [<3] right now, just chillin. no partying. taking it easy. just relaxing. semi-family-relative-cousin time, or none at all. basically just me, taiwan t.v., [no food in this equation :O], bed, jet lag. and that pretty much has summed up my two weeks being here so far.
i treat taiwan like its my home. so whenever i’m at ‘home,’ i do the boring things. chill + watch t.v. + alone time + leisure time. not really traveling, partying, fancy dinners of that sort.
now, when i meet up with liz in singapore, it’ll probably be a totally different tumblr post haha. i don’t think i’m going into details on that one. well, i just finished eating zhou dou fu [stinky tofu], and i smell like garlic, yum yum.
i miss talking to my friends. stupid time difference + stupid laziness + stupid indifference/apathy. mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. sorry guys. anyways, my life isn’t all that interesting at the moment anyways. haha, i’ll let you guys know if i go out on one of my adventurous escapades :].
i miss thailand so much for the following (and many other) reasons
i want to go back. NOW. GET ME AN ECONOMIC-CLASS TICKET THERE, NOW. FUCK, I’LL SWIM THERE.
It’s 11.47pm right now. I should be asleep getting ready for the BIG MOVE IN DAY TO UNC tomorrow; or, at least I should be doing some last minute packing. But… what is really on my mind? Deleting a ton of people on Facebook. When I get drunk, maybe I’ll finally have the
liquid courage to do so.
OH MY GOD. THIS PHOTO MEANS SOOOOOx100 MUCH TO ME. I’m not even kidding right now. Want to know why? Just ask me :). I was looking up photos to describe my post…and on Google, I typed in: fuck my life. And…on page 3 (?), this showed up, and totally made my night.
downloading music for the win? before downloading music becomes ‘ill’-legal again?
So, what’s up world? Not much Deborah. That’s what I like to hear :). As you can tell, I’m going a little crazy. Actually, not really. I’m just bored for the moment. 3 DAYS TILL UNC, and… I’m really ambiguous as to whether or not I’m excited, nervous, pissed, happy about the whole moving in. I’ll see when I actually set foot into Avery. WOO-hoo…
Basically, my post actually is supposed to be directed at deleting some friends on Facebook. I have already deleted 2 ‘friends’ today. I’m making this move because, a friend of mine back in Thailand had a discussion with me about a ‘particular situation,’ and she said: “why do you want to torture yourself looking at their daily activities via Facebook? You’re not friends with them anymore thanks to —————-. If you don’t have any sort of interactions with them, they don’t care about you either.” And, well, she’s right. And, I’ve already had this conversation in my head before. I guess I just never had the “heart” or…guts (?) to do it. So, well, I know if I start the deleting process, I’ll lose at least 18 friends, who I once talked to. Then, there are a few stray ‘friends’ that I’ll surely delete.
to everyone suffering right now. i want to assure you. you’ll be fine. i’m sorry for your hurt, i’m sorry for your losses, i’m sorry for your suffering. i wish i could help, but you have told me enough. i’m glad i’m there for you; i’m glad you could talk to me. everything will be fine.
a little humor: :)
i wish people knew how much i truly cared about them. i think about the things i did wrongly to others i sincerely love, and care about…
CONSTANTLY. nonstop. i’ve stressed so much about the pettiest things, and it hurts realizing that these people i care about have no inclination that i think about them all the time. i try to tell the friends i love, but… sometimes it can’t get through their thick head. maybe they don’t care about me as much as i care about them.
i wish someone would just help me tell the friends i love… that i think about the guilty things i have done to them. especially that ‘one chick’ [?]. i HONESTLY thought about her nonstop as i went through my past relationship with that ‘one boy.’ yes, i had fun with him, but in the back of my head, i always wanted to say sorry.
^ —> the above gives me no excuse does it? maybe i’m such a coward i can’t tell her face-to-face how i really felt at the moment. maybe….it’s because i realize she wouldn’t care what i was thinking.
this shit has dragged on too long. i have to forget the past… but its hard. :(
just last night. something happened. i felt bad. couldn’t have a fun night. and…i honestly don’t recall what exactly i did wrong. -___-. im sorry.
FUCKING SORRY. X100.